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The last two days have been kind of a mixed bag. There has been happy, in the form of finishing finals yesterday and feeling that I did pretty well, and also a Christmas party today, plus lots of present-wrapping (my favorite holiday activity). But there has been some personal, family-related drama, which I guess most people experience around the holidays, but it's been bumming me out a little. Mostly, I just don't feel all that Christmas-y this year. I usually feel a little more cheery and excited about the holidays, but I've been so busy this year, I haven't really had time to enjoy things. We got our tree last Sunday, but it's still sitting naked in our living room, because trimming the tree is my job, and I just haven't had the time or energy to do it yet. That makes me kind of sad, because I love the holidays so much and feel guilty and disappointed when I don't enjoy them to the hilt. Which sort of dumb, I guess, but there it is.

I'm clinging to to happy things that did happen, though, and the feeling of gratification I've gotten from all the nice people I've been talking to in the last couple of days (and there have been a lot of them). Mostly, I'm just glad things aren't worse, which maybe sounds a little sulky or something, but when I look at all the problems going on in the world and the difficulties other people are having, and then take a hard look at all the advantages and gifts and wonderful things I have...well, I'm pretty lucky. So I guess my happy for the last couple of days has been in knowing that I have it good.

...That was the longest run-on sentence in the world, oh my god. I need to go to bed. Um. ...In conclusion: things are okay over here, and I hope they're okay for everyone else too. The end!

Also, I got your card,